K的沉默让我更加好奇，但是我却并没有再追问。我们只是静静的坐着，各自在Laptop上闲逛着，却谁也没有要提出回家。



过了一会儿，K终于打破了沉默。



“you know, you are right, I've never had a girlfriend."



我看着他，很惊讶他竟然没有交过女朋友，也惊讶他竟然告诉了我。



我刻意隐藏我的惊讶，在这个无人的咖啡店我想听听K的故事。



“have you ever fell in love then? or liked a girl? "



"um...I wouldn't call it love. I mean I don't think I know what love is, do you?"



我笑了笑，回避了他的问题而是反问他。



“...which means you have really really liked a girl? yeah?"



"well, yea, I guess you can say that. Really really liked a girl."



"someone in our school?"



"nah, it was a girl that I know since I was 10; we were childhood friends, in fact, we where the only Chinese kids in our elementry school. We were always just good friends, but then we ended up in the same high school, and sephmore year I finally asked her out..."



"that's so sweet" 我总是很羡慕那种青梅竹马的爱情故事。



"sweet? I actually regret that I ever asked her out. Everything just went down hill from that point..."



"what happened?"



他笑了笑，有时那种我才不透的微笑。但却和我平时在校园和球场上的他大不相同。我想他也许只是在掩饰他的痛楚。我仔细看着他的表情，我却并看不出他脸上有丝毫的哀伤。



“well, long story short, 3 months later she hooked up with one of my good friends. "



这次我藏不住我的惊讶，但一时也不知道该说什么。"I'm sorry...."



“nah, that's ok. it's all good. I was too young to be in a relationship anyways..."



我正想要再追问些什么，正是这个时候店员走了过来。



“sorry, we will be closed in 10 mins."



"well, looks like it's time to go ..." K一边说一边开始收拾。



我没有再问下去。临走的时候，K很绅士的送我到车上。他竟然像兄弟一样拍拍我的肩膀，


“hey, I'm glad you are my project parnter, we got things done pretty quickly...and...it was nice talking to you too, I haven't told anyone about that story..."



"oh...yea...same here; and don't worry I don't tell anyone"



"nah, I don't mean that. I don't really care. It was just a good talk...by the way, 我们可以讲中文阿。我中文还可以。拜拜，小心开车”还没等我说什么他替我关了车门。



我笑着向他摆摆手。看着他的背影，我想象他曾经受过的伤，也许他现在这样没有稳定交往的状态是害怕再次受伤。这就是他一直不交女友的原因。